I completed my goal for the week: 1,200 words. I only wrote once during the week though, and despite having it on my ‘to-do’ list everyday writing just keeps getting left behind. But, then again, I set myself a goal and surpassed it. I should proud of that effort and accomplishment. I purposefully set a managable target precisely because I knew I wouldn’t have chance to dedicate myself to hours of writing. So why is it that I feel so unfulfilled?
Maybe it’s because I don’t feel that I’m giving my writing the time and energy it deserves. I’ve become lacksidasical and unmotivated. I’d like to be able to push through it, but I don’t seem to have the right attitude necessary to stay on task and remain focused on the end goal. Because I’m not making the time for it, I often feel rushed or pressured into writing: and that doesn’t assist creativity.
I’m not quite sure where to go from here. Whether or not to put it to one side for a short time again – risking the possibility I may never come back to it – or to force myself into it and simply be stronger, more focused, more dedicated. Looking at those two options on the page I know which I’d rather be known for doing. After all: is it better to try and fail, or to never have tried at all?
Back to the writing page it is then…