I’m procrastinating again. Instead of writing, which I intended to do when I sat down with my laptop, I searched for writing blogs and have now spent an hour of my time realising how common this problem of procrastination really is. I mean, I’ve discovered some really great blogs – a couple of which I’ve bookmarked with the intention of continuing to follow. However, this action has not added to any word count, nor has it encouraged the beginning of a new story, edited an already written narrative or even planned or sparked off a new idea. It may not have been a waste – but it certainly wasn’t productive to my writing goals.
Or was it?
I now know that I am not alone. I feel a comaraderie with other struggling writers. I understand that procrastination happens to many writers and that it is not the be all and end all of our struggle to write. I feel relieved to know that it isn’t just me that sometimes gets distracted, even with the best of intentions. Today is just one day, and it is not yet over. I still have the chance to write. I still have time to dedicate to my novel, or edit that short story, or even write a whole new narrative if I so wish.
Right now I’ve spent too long reading blogs on my laptop screen: as such, an extended break is required. That doesn’t mean I’m not going to come back and try my damndest to contribute to my dream of writing today. Reading the challenges other people have faced, and fought hard to succeed in the midst of them, has spurred me on. My heart is aflame with the fire of passion: I can do this. And perhaps, without the occasional foray into procrastination I would never have discovered this self belief today. If there are so many of us out there who share the same dream, then it’s important that we also share in our struggles and hardships, as we do through our blogs.
So today, for me, reading blogs may not have equalled procrastination but was rather a sign that I needed reassurance – reassurance I have found through mutual desire and dedication in others and their struggle to write. Today, I needed that.