I’m feeling a little bit lost at the moment. Even though I’m doing all those things that I mentioned on my to-do list, I don’t feel like I’m actually getting anything done. My eye is constantly gazing beyond the page I’m reading, or writing, and being distracted by the mundane. I think I’m just tired – ready for a break – in need of some down time.
Fortunately that is just what I have coming up. On Saturday I will set off on a ‘girls’ long weekend with my Mum and my Sister to Pine Lake for some much needed rest and relaxation. We did something similar last year and announced a tradition: we had to get away somewhere like that every year, just the three of us. And therefore we are sticking to our word.
That doesn’t mean I won’t be tackling some of the writing or reading that I want to do. Yes, I’m tired, but at the same time I feel that I have been trudging down the same track for too long. I need a change, a focus, a structure to aim for. So I’m hoping to enjoy the time not spent with my Mum and Sister by indulging in some writing exercises and really thinking about where I want to go in the next few months. Time away is nothing if not well spent.
For example, that wonderful short story that is continues to challenge me – I feel I have gotten to a point where I doubt if I can make it any better, and yet I still don’t quite believe it’s good enough. Perhaps these are just issues with self-belief, but there is still something about the story that I can’t quite capture. It’s about time I aired it to my harshest critic (my mother) and the only person I know that doesn’t read fiction (my sister) to see what problems they can identify for me to work on. Having two such individuals in my corner is sometimes helpful, but often times difficult: thus, I don’t share any work that I feel is ‘finished’ with my Mum and I wouldn’t ask my Sister to read my novel! On this one though, they might just prove useful.
New environment also suggests new influence, and I want to put that to good use. Sometimes the mind just needs a little unfamiliar comfort to strike up some inspiration and start ticking over again. Or at least, that’s what I’m hoping.
As a result, there won’t be a to-do list next week: I’m taking the week off and letting my muse take me where she will! I’m planning to post up some writing exercises in advance of my departure, so watch out for these. I’ll be back by Tuesday, but then it’s work and rest for me over the Easter weekend (oh, alright then, maybe some – lots of – chocolate too!).
Enjoy the weekend!