A Letter to My Dearly Departed Dog

Dearest Mac,

I miss you. It’s only been two months since you disappeared over Rainbow Bridge, a journey I sent you out on alone because you were no longer able to enjoy this life as you once had done. It was a difficult decision, but living with the consequences of such a choice has been much harder.

I miss having a reason to get out of bed in the morning and your sleepy little face waking up so pleased to see me; the sound of your paws on the laminate flooring, scraping and tapping away when you got up before I did. I miss the soft depth of your fur as I scratched behind your ears, watching the grin spread across your face and your head tilt further toward me, entranced by the bliss of my fingers massaging your head. I miss your smell; that musty, deep aroma that I used to breathe in whenever I came home after work: to me it meant that the wait was over, that it was time to play, that we were united again.


I remember moaning whenever I was tired and I had to take you out in the rain, except, once we were out braving the weather together – you in your coat and me in mine – it was peaceful and energising. I always came back home feeling better than when we left. I recall your little trot instead of a walk and how you would bound about instead of run; your happy, swaying movements portrayed genuine joy and that could only ever make me smile. I remember coming home from work angry, when things hadn’t gone to plan or someone had let me down, and there you were, waiting to cheer me up, to make me forget the worries of the outside world because when we were together nothing else mattered to you, or to me.

There is a space beneath my desk now, where you used to rest beside my feet as I wrote. The corner where your bed used to be is clear and I don’t believe anything will ever fill that space again, not like you. The hook where your leads and collars and coats used to hang are empty now, the novelty dog tail still – there will be no more wags from you. The house is quiet without your footsteps, tapping along the hall, and no gentle snoring accompanies my daily chores although the silence echoes just as loud.

The largest void remains in my heart when I think of how essential you were to my life. At home you were my shadow and now no companion waits for me outside the bathroom door, as excited to see me after my two minute break than if I had been gone for hours. You were the reason I stopped to talk to people as we walked, and grew to know my neighbours. And when I struggled with my health you expected nothing but my love, and judged me not for the things I could not do but for the simplest gestures of attention that were all I could manage on a bad day. You helped me push through my boundaries and commit to the things I loved to do. In this way you were my inspiration, my muse and my champion; each day marked by those three walks we took that structured each one.


I’ve stopped writing now. It isn’t the same without you here. There will always be something missing whenever I sit down at my desk and prepare to write. There is no impetus to roll out of bed, no thoughtful morning walk or happy playful times. My feet remain cold as I sit here and the room is quiet, and I have no encouraging eyes to look upon when I come to a blank moment. There is no end to the torture of that blank page that I am now to face alone; no hopeful face looking up at me to remind me that it’s time to stop and take a break. And there are no silly celebrations when I do finally find the words; no squeaky toys to watch you chase or treats for you to find. My writing world is ‘blah’ without you in it and I find myself at a loss to continue with it now you’re gone.

Instead I write to you, my faithful rescue dog, who knew how to make me smile when I was down and calm me when I despaired. You gave your whole self to me and I had to let you go. And the pain is still so raw, my home too empty and quiet, and my heart broken.

Yours Forever and More,
Cat x

Published by Cat Lumb

Writer, Writing Coach, and Writing Workshop Facilitator

9 thoughts on “A Letter to My Dearly Departed Dog

  1. Had to come back to this as struggled to read it without getting upset the first time. Unfortunately, I fared no better the second time either. I’ve said goodbye to two cats over the last eight years and am now left with one remaining. She is over sixteen and, at the moment, still sprightly, I’m glad to say. Losing pets is very sad; like losing a family member. No words will heal that loss; just time. (Changed to my married name now from Lees, in case you were wondering who I am.)

    1. Hi Julie! Glad you clarified the name change. 🙂
      Sorry to stir up difficult emotions, as you say it’s a terrible thing to lose a pet, but I’m glad you came back to give it a second try. Hope your sprightly 16yr old cat keeps you company for a long time yet. X

      1. It was a beautifully written piece, by the way, and a fitting tribute to your beloved little dog.

  2. Heartbreaking. Losing a pet is just the worst. They really are one of the family and its so hard when they’re no longer around.So sorry xx

  3. Awww! >.< Sending love ❤

    It may not feel like it now, but getting a new furry friend – further down the line, of course, when you're ready – might be a good idea. Not as a replacement (hell no! The place for our pets in our hearts is too firmly marked out for that!) but just because giving a new, loving, home to a furry friend who needs one is one of the best feelings in the world.

    Of course, if you don't feel you want to, that's ok. But they bring so much joy to our lives that it might be worth it.

  4. Now I’m crying 😭
    So sorry for your loss and that hole in your life.

    Stay strong xx

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